

Worth it?
How do you keep fighting a battle you already know you’re never going to win? When someone’s memory of you is so filtered and jaded that no matter what you say or do, it just doesn’t land. You can know your truth, try to explain it, and still feel like you’re arguing with a version of yourself that isn’t even real. At the same time, it’s beyond frustrating hearing that constant, low-level commentary about everything you do. Not dramatic, just steady enough to slowly wear you
24 hours ago


Fridge
So the last couple days my mom has been on a full mission trying to find a new refrigerator because the old one decided that ice cream should now be served as soup. After a deep dive of research, she picked one but decided we needed to cut part of a cabinet to make room for a taller fridge. She ordered it and then immediately started panicking that it wouldn’t fit through the door, but I assured her it would if they just took the doors off. Flash forward to this morning, the
2 days ago


May
I cannot believe it’s May tomorrow. How did that even happen? My birthday is right around the corner and it honestly feels a little crazy, like wasn’t it just January five minutes ago? Time is moving way too fast and apparently I’m getting really old now. Someone tell it to slow down just a little. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depressio
3 days ago


So Much
I can’t believe how much has already happened with Oliver! in just the past few days. Everything is starting to come together so quickly and it’s honestly a little wild in the best way. I’m really excited about this show and everything we’re building, and I can’t wait to get started and see it all come to life. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBo
4 days ago


Contracts
A lot of contracts and orders were finalized yesterday, and honestly it kind of scares me a little, but I guess it’s what needs to happen to move forward. Big steps always feel a little intense right before they start to feel exciting. On a brighter note, I’m really excited to announce that I will be the set designer and technical director for Opera SLO’s The Mikado this October. I’m looking forward to diving into it and creating something really special. #LiveYourDream #Cre
5 days ago


Baby
So the weirdest thing happened. I took out all the plants and aquarium decorations to clean everything because the tank hadn’t been fully cleaned in a long time. After I put everything back in and the water finally settled, almost 24 hours later, I noticed that the swordtail in there had somehow “shrunk.” I told my mom and she immediately said that’s impossible, fish don’t shrink. So we looked it up and learned that swordtails actually have live babies, and most of them usual
6 days ago


Think
When you take a long drive, like San Diego to LA, sometimes it’s nice to turn the music off and just think. Some of my best reflecting happens on the road. Thank God for talk texting too, that’s how I get most of my stuff done while ideas are flowing. #LiveYourDream #CreativeHealing #ThisIsMyStory #Theater #Musicals #ToxicPeople #StrippedAMemior #MentalHealthMatters #FromStageToPage #HealingThroughArt #VulnerablyBold #Depression #Manipulation #Bipolar #BreakingTheStigma #Thea
Apr 26


Messages
A few days ago my mom sent me a screenshot with the caption, “From your dad to me for you.” It was about displaying art at the county fair, such a simple thing, but it landed in a complicated place. Since we haven’t spoken in over four years, my first thought was oddly basic, like well, I’m obviously not dead to him, something made him think of me, something made him send it along. And then the second thought came right after… why not just send it to me directly. Maybe I alre
Apr 25


Meme
Yesterday my mom sent me a meme about writing things down. I’m not totally sure why, and I plan to ask her today… but it made me laugh because I thought, “Does she realize I do this every single day right here?” This little space has quietly become my daily practice. Some days it’s journaling, some days storytelling, some days processing life in real time. Maybe I should actually start promoting this blog instead of treating it like a hidden notebook. I can see a small handfu
Apr 24


Home
Finally back in my own bed after what felt like weeks away. I think my mom had a really good visit with her people, though she was exhausted from packing so much into a few days. I do have a little regret about not making it to Arizona to see Melissa, but so much got accomplished these past few days that I’m feeling good about where things stand. I also got to spend some time with my sister, which meant a lot, and I did what I kept telling myself I wanted to do—spend time wit
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