Ouch!

I spent most of yesterday lying on an emergency room bed after coughing so much the day before that I was sure I had broken a rib. Turns out, after the x rays,  it's just bruised with a hairline fracture, and it is treated just as you would a broken rib because, after all, you can't put a cast on your ribcage. Breathing is difficult and very painful, and with every second of coughing, it just feels like there is a knife stabbing me, in my lower left rib, waking me a bunch of times in screaming and in tears. I don't know how much of this pain I can bear. It feels like my nightmares of dying have come true in reality. Therefore, here I am at three AM, fingers crossed not to cough, writing this post, and watching RuPaul's Drag Race All Stars!

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