A lot

A lot happened today, so I need to do two posts. I had asked my sister via text to kick off the Christmas process so I could claim back some of my things for Tanya’s house next door. Her mom passed away, and she wants a big decoration for cheap. But when I got home, my mom was dropped off by Gabe, who was returning my dad’s car, as my Uncle Walter is visiting (which, of course, I wouldn’t know since why would I?). I asked my mom to go see a movie, but she remembered she had to babysit because they were going to dinner with my dad. Even though I haven’t spoken to him in years, he still finds a way to ruin things. Not only did I not decorate, but I didn’t get to see my uncle either—my dad poisoned that relationship too. And he totally screwed me over by not paying for my logo work. Let’s be honest, they’re all liars, and I can’t understand why my mom and sister defend them. I can’t shake the feeling that my sister, who works with living trusts, has probably changed my dad’s trust to leave everything to her and her kids. I haven’t spoken to him in nearly three years since he moved to California, and it’s hard to admit, but it feels like it’s probably true. I’ll never hear it from any of them, but somehow it feels like the reality I have to face.

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