Asshole

My sister told me, my mom told me and many of my friends, but my dad will never change, cause he's just an asshole. He sees nothing wrong with how he is acting, he won’t change. It's taken me many years to figure out that my dad probably has undiagnosed narcissistic personality disorder. He has done so many awful things to so many people that were close to him, there is no other explanation as to why he acts the way that he does. I went no contact with my father 3 and a half months ago when I escaped to Arizona. I've also been working with a therapist to help me process everything. Through therapy I learned about NPD and that my father probably has it. Therapy also helped me stay strong in my no contact with him. It also helped me to process the guilt I was feeling about going no contact with my elderly dying father. Writing down all the ways that he has hurt me & others and all the things that I have done for him over the years to try to help him made me realize how much he has taken from me & others for most of his life and that no one should take that much from anyone, even if they are your parent. Know that it’s nothing you have done to cause this. It’s a problem he has, and he has to want to fix it. Unfortunately, my father doesn’t want to fix his problem and he will probably die without ever speaking to me again. I am honestly fine with that because I know that it is HIS problem and not mine. I attempted for many, many years to help him in so many ways and it still wasn’t enough. He has to acknowledge that he has a problem and unfortunately people with NPD do not usually do that. I know I am not alone in this. Many people have gone through it and are thriving.

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