Christmas in July

I woke up vomiting clear bile all over the place. I slept super hard on and off and felt like I had a really bad flu when I woke up, but at least there was no tooth pain. Honestly, I'm not sure which is worse. Then the diarrhea started. Throughout all this, my dog has been following me around all day; I think she's worried about me. I've been watching a million movies on the Hallmark Channel, as they are celebrating "Christmas in July," while feeling really sick with hot and cold flashes. The St. Jude's commercials and the cheesy Hallmark movies have made me shed many tears as I celebrated the 4th of July by myself without any fireworks. Holidays have become meaningless. I really hope Melissa and the kids end up coming tomorrow, or I'll be really sad.

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