Feeling Blah

Lately I have been feeling blah and not like myself. I realized that I have been in such a funk for so long that I have lost myself. Sometimes in life we get so caught up in other people, other things, work, etc that we forget to take care of ourselves. I forgot how important I was, I forgot how important Erik is, how he is bad ass, how he is a queen, how he is confident and fun. Sometimes when we have a mental illness it causes us to seek satisfaction from other people; it causes us to go so hard for others and forget about ourselves. I can not stress how important self love and care is. Working at the theater really helped remind me how important I was because I have been so caught up in others that I have been completely miserable. I really had to take a hard look in the mirror and try and remember when the last time I was really happy was. And the saddest part was that I haven’t been happy in so long that I could not even remember when the time was. That’s not okay and that means something has to change. You can’t be here for others and make others happy if you are not here making yourself happy first. Remember you are the most important person in your own life and nobody comes before you.

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