May 23, 20222 min read

Sad Day

I'm giving away my dog Talon today. Few things have made me feel more guilty than re-homing the dog. Not only that, it felt like failing a test.

She deserved better. She is an adorable Husky that was supposed to be a Pomski. After the first failed attempt at ordering a dog, I bought her from someone in Chula Vista. She followed me around the house and all she wanted was my love and constant attention.

For me, getting a dog was a fantasy: a happy dream from the nightmare I was living. I bought a car, my dog and finally secured an apartment lease in San Diego. But it all fell apart when they required a HUGE deposit and then rented to someone else. My dream had died again.

We are encouraged to never let anyone see us sweat. But why perpetuate a falsehood? Life is hard, even if just in the everyday mundanities. I worry we put so much pressure on ourselves. And when I could not stand my life at my Dad's I ran away to Arizona with my dog. After two and a half months I returned to California (to collect a check) to try and make up with my family, but everything fell apart again and my car was towed at the hotel when were staying at. With no where to go and 3 nights at the hotel without being able to work because she wouldn't stop barking when I left, I text my Mom who stepped up and came and got us.

I realized she is so attached to me and now I cannot leave her without her freaking out. We have been through a lot in the past 5 months and I found a family in the country that has a little four year old girl and another husky where she will be better off.

I am really sad today!