Struggle

I'm struggling in silence. I'm exhausted but I'm trying. I'm dying but I'm surviving. I need someone to talk to, but I don't want to tell anyone what I'm going through. I look strong, but my inner self is weak. I give advice to people while I'm waiting for motivation to be given to me. I hate awkward hugs, but I really need them, especially in my situation right now. I sleep, but my mind is awake. I said I'm fine, but my heart is breaking. I said I'm okay, but my feelings are hurting. I want to talk, but I want to keep silent. I don't know what's wrong with me, what I am, who I am. I don't recognize myself anymore.

9 things you might not  know about me:

- I'm an over thinker

- Being yelled at makes me shutdown

- I don't discuss my feelings only if I'm close to you

- Music is therapy

- I hate being alone

- I distance myself from people when it gets tough

- I love hard

- I put other people's feelings first before my own

- I’m tired

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