Suffer

Today, I had to witness Archie having a complete meltdown over playing with my mom and his brother Coltonr. I only heard everything unfold for over 15 long  minutes as I was in my room and didn't want to see it. While listening, I wondered if my mom handled it correctly and who actually suffered in the long run. She went from calm to very frustrated.  How does one correct this problem? I feel like Archie myself all the time,, but somehow I manage to hold it together (yes, I know he's 5). But I wish I could have a meltdown!  The event ended with Colton alone as my mom comforted Archie in the other room. I honestly don't know what I would do but feel bad that so much attention is placed on Archie and not on Colton, who I believe suffers from the focus on Archie. Just my opinion. I find it interesting how we can observe and judge others, yet every day feels increasingly challenging for me to navigate as my overwhelming sadness takes hold. Figuring out what to do each day becomes a struggle, and motivation is nowhere to be found.

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