May 25, 20221 min read

Toxic Daddy

How do I deal with a toxic father who doesn't realize the effect he's had on me and the rest of the family? The unfortunate fact is that I can do nothing about it. Toxic people either would never realize that they are toxic, or not admit even if they know that what they are doing is wrong.

I have gone through similar feelings. I used to believe that one day he would realize that the way he behaves is wrong and be more approachable person. I have told him these MANY times.

Out of anger, I confronted him one day asking him why he dropped his "lady friend" Chris and wouldn't return her calls (since she was asking my sister and I what was going on.) There was a huge fight and he started guilt tripping and accusing me and the fight culminated in nothing. After a few days of anger and sadness I realized that, my dad is not bound to understand me. I was just wasting my time.

So I decided that I would not let my anger and hatred affect my life. I minimized my possible interactions with him, and blocked my emotions when there was a huge tantrum going on in the house and moved my shit to storage and the garage.

I can never forgive him, that's okay. But I will never let him traumatize me further.